There are many weird and wonderful diseases and disorders out there. There are many weird and wonderful acronyms out there (why do people just LURRRRV acronyms??). However, there is something that combines both! Yes, people, S.A.D!!

To quote the fountain of all knowledge, Wikipedia: “Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD), also known as winter depression or winter blues, is a mood disorder in which people who have normal mental health throughout most of the year experience depressive symptoms in the winter or, less frequently, in the summer,[1] spring or fall, repeatedly, year after year.”

SADS!

Now I’m not saying I have SADs, I know people who do and hey, I might have it, but it is pretty damn hard to be cheerful when it is dark by 4.30pm (hate hate HATE daylight savings) and when it doesn’t stop raining for weeks on end. Ugh. November in Vancouver is enough to give ANYONE SADS!! There are special lamps you can buy that apparently zap the right stuff at you and make you feel better. Wouldn’t it be great if that were the cure for all types of depression (hell, all types of illnesses!!)? A lamp?? Cured!

I am taking a HUGE time out at the moment. I have been feeling run down, yes, even SADS, and need to just get myself together and feel better. The year is winding down (EEEK!!) and that means 2010 is on its way. Aside from the FIFA World Cup in South Africa and the Olympics here, 2010 feels like it is going to be a momentous year. I am not sure why. Is it the stupid Olympic countdown clock? Is it the endless talk about it? Is it that I will hit a rather milestoney birthday??? Who knows? All I know is that 2009 has been very weird and wonderful (like the diseases and the acronyms) and I don’t know how I feel about it coming to an end.

This has been an incredibly difficult year, filled with major ups (Meerkat Communications being one of them) and downs (various) – what a frikkin’ roller coaster. I hate roller coasters. It has been a year of growing and learning, and anxiety and depression, of new friendships and dissipated friendships, of love and laughter, of pasta spoons and rockpools (this has no meaning to anyone but myself and The Baker). Is it just me? I don’t think so. Most people I speak to seem to have had a very strange year. I don’t know anything about astronomy – is it in the stars? are the planets all wonky? Is it me? Is it you? Who knows!! All I know is that I need to declare December the Month of Me!! (shouldn’t every day, every month be about me?? I think so). I am going to practice rethinking and rewording negative thoughts; I am going to try every day to do things that feed my soul and make me feel better. I am going to try to graciously accept help and love and support, and I am going to try (my biggest challenge in life) to LET GO and trust that the universe will take care of me.

SADS? who me?

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